I have struggled with OCD for quite some time, I saw someone on my mission about it, but did not want to take medication for it or anything. A little while ago, I read a post on Facebook from a sister I used to minister to a while back in a singles ward I was in. She shared about getting help for OCD and how she has and is continuing to overcome it with help. I always respected this girl, I thought she was darling and so sweet. Seeing post about getting help made me also want to get help. Recently my OCD has come in a form that is a little much for me, and so I set up an appointment with Dr. Au from the BYU Student Health Center, and got started on OCD medication
However, thoughts and fears came to me pretty strongly while waiting for my appointment and I found myself at Winco, not being able to focus on finding my groceries because my brain was going a little nuts so I stopped in the aisle way and researched OCD again on my phone and found some things on religious OCD or scrupulosity. I read about it a bit in there and this helped ease my brain a bit, I have found myself reading a lot about scrupulosity and OCD and found a good youtube video as well. This helped me to realize that I wasn't this terrible person that OCD starts lying to you and makes you think you are, and I also felt more prepared for my appointment with Dr. Au. I also downloaded a book called The OCD Mormon. As I have been reading this book I have been able to relate to the author Kari Freguson who describes many thoughts that I have felt trapped such as her first time going through the temple having a fear of not being good enough, feeling the need to over confess to a bishop and it never being good enough, and then how OCD has changed forms throughout her life. I have seen this, like I will overcome my OCD in one way, and then it manifests it differently another season.
I have turned to a good book in the past called You Are Not Your Brain that has also helped me. It is really cool to me that there is awesome help at the tip of our fingers for medical conditions whether it be OCD, or something else, there is so much written on these things online and it can be so very helpful. If anyone is interested the church has a good article in the September Ensign on Scrupulosity that I found this week. It was helpful for me to read this.
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wow, I love this! thank you so much for sharing. I have personally really enjoyed listening to Ted talks about all different kinds of mental health concerns. That might be another uplifting research you could try.
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